A blink: The Past, A Blink: The Present, A blink: The Future

Hey readers!!! how's life been??? well i'd say that i've never blogged since like ages but i promise u that this one with be worth the read.

A blink: The Past, A Blink: The Present, A Blink: The Future...

well i can roughly know what's coming into your mind right now, It's been 18 years 2 months and 18 days now since I was born into this world and boy has it been long, usually when u hear your dad say he's fifty u'd be like, "boy my dad's getting old" but guess what i've heard people saying on their 18th birthdays, "boy i'm old" now tat's sumthing funny aint it?

now have u ever wondered why u never remember your time when u were juz babies? my last memory was when i was three, now aint that suprising? but why can't u remember those last few years, why can't u remember the smile of your mum's face when she gave birth to you, when u first opened your eyes to the light of the world and our home called earth? the joy of your parents having you into this world, their own flesh and blood. now even that i cannot answer. there's so many things in life that even a genius can't answer and they mite go crazy trying to answer it. life's juz mysterious, extraordinary, full of suprises, not like a bed of roses and the ever famous life's like a box of chocolates. i'd say after 18 years in this world, boy have i changed, not in size, but in mind and soul.

2007 has been one year that i'll never forget. when i first stepped into Taylor's i told to myself. this wun be the same as VI anymore. I was no more Troop Leader of Victoria Scout Group, no more Asst. IU director of VI Interact club, no more Sub Editor of Seladang, Vice President of Museum Board, no more anything. I was juz an ordinary person when i came into Taylors with one motive in mind. which is to leave a mark here in Taylors. to make a difference in the college, to make a change of mindset into alot of people to maybe change how things run. but i guess all in all, it changed me rather than i changed them. =) I was EIC of Winanga-Li and boy was it an experience. i learned alot from there and i can say tat if u think editing's an easy job, think again. i met a great bunch of people back here in coll. great classmates, great coll mates and a great person who i hold so dear to. i've been let down, brought up again and let down back again. this year has been one great test for me, a test that i've never encountered in my life. everything at one point seemed so wrong, everything at one time juz scattered into pieces. everything that i had so much confidence at juz breaks right in front of me. a year to teach me lessons the hardest of the hardest ways. it's like God's telling me sumthing He has told me all my life but i juz never noiticed it. well now in a way i'm learning it the hard way. i used to help many people who're confused, stressed out, still thinking about the correct road to take. i used to help them make decisions which i thought wud help them choose their path, but in the end it turned out that i was wrong. i used to think that i was right and confident about alot of things that seemed right to me but in the end it turned the other way around. sounds more like an emotional time to u am i right? how wud u feel if one day everything juz went wrong and u lost everything in life, my senior once asked me, if i was left all alone in a organisation, if everyone quit, what would i do? now at that time i wud answer that i'd continue and bring it back up, but to think again, it is never easy. i managed to change a whole board from a teacher's handle to a students handle and boy it wasn't easy. early of the year i always talked about trust and TRUST ME, it really is important. i tried to forget about my past, the past tat gave people the bad impression of me, i used to be someone so desperate for girls, yes it's true, but i'd never hurt the feelings of a girl. i'd never hurt anyone's feelings. my feelings were hurt so many times trying but guess God's given me the chance of a lifetime to have met someone so wonderful now. my darling honey pie!!! she's one girl that i wud say, kept my flame litted up throughout even at the worst of times. she made me stand when i fell. and boy it hurt. though sumtimes we quarell and have our arguments but i can say that those hard times kept that fire burning by teaching us even more and our bond will be even stronger. =)

a year that taught me even more about life. it taught me how important my parents are to me. i used to go out late nites regardless of wat my parents say and now i'm almost at a point of screwing up my life. i used to say yes at everything in the world regardless of the situation and i almost lost evrything i have. i'd say that helping people is the best thing anyone can do in life but act throught situation. i mixed up my priorities this year. a whole lot of it. i lost control of my life and now i'm suffering trying to find the way back. i'm like driving aimlessly in the beginning and now i'm struggling in the end while running out of petrol. sometimes in situations like this u juz feel like stopping the car, get out and just lie down flat and sleep beacuse in dreams there's no need to worry. but are u juz going to sit there and juz wait for someone in a helicopter to save u? i think not.

one last battle people, one last battle. and it's over, for now, (finals i mean). A battle that even i wun guarantee a win, even a strong mind can grow weak and breakdown. but one things for sure, i'm not giving up there, i got people's hope to live upon, i got a dream to make come true regardless of what happens, i got a life to hold on tight to, a promise to hold on to and i wud never break that promise and i hope that the person i made the promise to would hold on to it as tight as i do. =)

overall life's been bitter, sour, and sweet this year.
but i can say that all the time i spent this year was sweet. evevry single moment of it. i hear the song shape of my heart and looking back at the things i've done, i made quite a big impact in taylors didn't i and i have lots to thank to. i thank my brother ron the most for helping me in everything i do. i can say he's like a blood brother to me. like a real brother. i seriously can't thank him enough in life. i was juz out with him and gosh that trip in his car reminded me loads.

before i end this post till the next time i start writting again i would like to say, thanks for the memories class of S4 2007, my honey pie =), Taylors college, the 6 of 06, fellow brother Victorians, winanga-li editorial board, SAM comrades, and last not least everyone who gave me a great year of 2007.
THANK YOU ALL.

A poem for you great people, for a great year,
A second,
A minute,
An Hour,
A day,
A Month,
A year,
A decade,
A century,
A millenium,
all these are ways of showing how long has time past since the world was first created,
as time passes by,
never forget those times,
those memories you once had,
treasure it with a big heart,
cherish it with a big vision,
but always remember,
make new ones,
and make these new ones,
the best you can ever make it to be,
treasure life,
treasure your loved ones,
treasure yourself,
treasure your family,
treasure your friends,
and never once let them down,
for they have hopes on you,
even how harsh they may be,
but look on the bright side,
you sometimes hurt the ones u love,
and this applies,
life can be tough,
life can be sore,
but cheer up,
every story has a happy ending,
think that way,
and life would be happy in every angle u look at it,
look into trouble with a smile,
look into obstacles with a bigger smile,
and tell them,
bring it on,
do the best you can,
make life the best you can make out of it,
nevr do the wrong things,
and always do the right,
everything in life has it's balance,
so remember the ying and yang of the balance,
treasure treasure treasure life,
and life would treasure you,
trust in yourself,
belive in yourself,
belive in miracles,
and miracles would come to you,
be the man/woman you are suppose to be,
and always rememeber,
you're special and you know it.

Thank you so much everybody for a great year!!! i'll post up more pictures soon enough. I'm going to miss 2007. that's for sure. =)

-Shyan-